Friday, July 4, 2014



People often ask how I manage my studies and music so well. Frankly speaking, I really don't know. I was simply exposed to such a lifestyle from young, when after dinner time meant practising the piano then doing work. I believe it was a choice I made. No one can ever force you to do the things you don't want to. I wouldn't call it passion, it has simply become a chore you have to fulfill, your obliged responsibility. And I don't want music to become a chore to me.

I want to enjoy music. I want to play to my heart's content. I want to be free.

If you truly love something, you won't have to be coerced into doing it. You won't see it as a liability. You would long to do it and love what you're doing.

Like many others, initially it wasn't my choice as a toddler to want to play the piano, it was my mother who had to drag me for music lessons. In fact, I rarely practised and would only relent under the bribery of sweets from my teacher. I was one lazy student haha. Even canings became a regular during practices too. But gradually as I grew up, music became such an integral part of my life that I could not do without. It was to the extent that when we went on holidays, it felt weird that I had no piano to come home to to practise. Practising had became a habit.

While I'm definitely not the best and most hardworking student around, I still lament about practising, dread having to wake up from my naps all weary and groggy just to practise. No one enjoys practising. But it's the process that makes it fun, the music-making. And without practice, how does one improve? How does one improve to become better? (For that, I have not found any solution. But I have taken practising as a temporary solution until I've found a viable one. ;-) )

I'm certainly still not a big fan of practising, my mom still has to chase me to the piano occasionally, but I know it's for my own good. As cliched as it sounds, practice does make perfect. It makes everything better. It makes you feel better, feel satisfied, feel gratified.

I want to explore more realms of music, I want to push my boundaries to beyond simply playing solo piano and classical works. Having a passion doesn't mean having to go to all the competitions available to attain achievements. Those material rewards don't have a lasting impact, these accolades simply appease for a short time. It's the desire to learn, to yearn for more and never stop learning.

Throughout my years of playing the piano, what I recall is far from all the achievements and awards I have accumulated over the years, but rather the enjoyment, fulfillment, gratification and fun I have derived from the piano. These are what makes those arduous practices worthwhile and what keeps me going and striving for the better. :-)


Post a Comment

Twitter Instagram Facebook Tumblr